November was a blur. An exciting blur. A fascinating blur. A blur filled with family and friends and fun. But a blur nonetheless. In less than a month I'll be celebrating another birthday. I don't think I'm getting older. In fact I'd like to believe I'm just getting more seasoned. But after the last two weeks of fighting off this cold/flu/whatever it is I think my body is trying to tell me that I am in fact getting older.
It's interesting how the mind and body can be so separate but so completely connected. I was just speaking with a good friend saying sometimes you have to follow your heart over your head. I still agree that it's sound advice but sometimes, when your body tells you to slow down, you might just want to listen.
But December is the most beautiful month filled with all the wonders of the holiday season. So I guess I'll rest in January.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Guilt
There have been times in my life where I have rightfully earned the title "Drama Queen." Then I grew up a little. I stopped running away and found that when things settled down a little life was pretty darn good. Of course, I'm with a man who doesn't encourage drama and when he does we sit down and talk it out together.
So it's all good. Until the stars got misaligned this week and the drama began again. One of my best friends introduced me to his girlfriend who I quickly adored only to have him break up with her shortly thereafter. Another good friend asked to borrow money because of some poor financial planning. I was reminded that I need to make Thanksgiving plans for a sibling even though it's not my responsibility. My mother reminded me of how I neglected my bf's cat while we were first dating and now that he's sick I should feel guilty about it.
Guilty. That is the feeling of the week. I wondered if we impose feelings of guilt on our selves or do we let others? And if we do it to ourselves, how do we stop? Is there any benefit to it? If others do it, how do we stop? Should we feel guilty for allowing them to make us feel guilty?
So it's all good. Until the stars got misaligned this week and the drama began again. One of my best friends introduced me to his girlfriend who I quickly adored only to have him break up with her shortly thereafter. Another good friend asked to borrow money because of some poor financial planning. I was reminded that I need to make Thanksgiving plans for a sibling even though it's not my responsibility. My mother reminded me of how I neglected my bf's cat while we were first dating and now that he's sick I should feel guilty about it.
Guilty. That is the feeling of the week. I wondered if we impose feelings of guilt on our selves or do we let others? And if we do it to ourselves, how do we stop? Is there any benefit to it? If others do it, how do we stop? Should we feel guilty for allowing them to make us feel guilty?
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